Jan10
long time coming back playing xbox
since my wife passed away in 2018 off stage 3 cancer wasting away was hard to watch and nothing i could do about it, i couldn't be asred playing on the xbox anymore i was thinking of selling everything to get rid of it and be far away from me as i can from it.
I lost all interest playing it, i blamed it for taken up my time up playing it for hours & hours at a time and not spending time with her which it wasn't xbox fault but mine own for letting it happen..
i didn't play on my xbox or anything for over 3 & half years if some may have noticed or not.? i wasn't on, i was trying to get myself back in right frame of mind and myself back on my feet, in that time i did try killing myself more then once and ended up in hospital & section for 6 months because of it, once i come out form hospital i got myself a job & throw myself into work doing all the hours i could and more. slowly getting over it with a help with a good friend by my side walking by my side one step at a time it was hard coming home to a empty house knowing that she wasn't there. anymore..
i did play on xbox once or twice since but couldn't get that feeling back ( buzz ) which i had back in the day, in that time i was still buy games here & there adding to my game collection but not like it was buying a new game smell buzz ( i think it was a habbit ) . i bought myself a newer jap xbox & a ntsc xbox 360 last year hoping it would relight the fire inside me abit.. yes & no
i got help from family / friends & my girlfriend i'm slowly going back to playing xbox or playstation, in the back of my mind i still miss the buzz abit hearing that sound of a achievements popping but i know it will be the same again, in my spare time from work i have taken up buying & building lego in the time being which i find out is more expensive ( alot more ) then buy games.
yes i'm slowly coming back playing, on & off but mostly spenting time with the one i love and family/friends
what i'm trying to say spend sometime with your loved ones or family & friends before it's to late
andy