phatal1ty's Blog - Jul to Sep 12 (210 followers)
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Jul
27
PermalinkMy dramatastic birthday
Posted by phatal1ty on 27 July 12 at 01:52 | There are 6 comments on this blog post - Please log in to comment on this blog.
Jul
26
PermalinkLife (and gamerscore) goes on after TA
Posted by phatal1ty on 26 July 12 at 01:43 | There are 6 comments on this blog post - Please log in to comment on this blog.
Jul
25
PermalinkThe brotherhood of the travelling games
Posted by phatal1ty on 25 July 12 at 00:14 | There are no comments on this blog - Please log in to comment on this blog.
Jul
20
PermalinkIts the little things - Part IV
In an attempt to regain some normalcy and finding my balance I got Spec Ops: The Line having been recommended by just about everyone who have played it. I needed to experience this before someone spoiled the story line for me.

So I tried to give it my undivided attention but it started out pretty slowly and before long I was in my same old routine..... I frequently have a cellphone with IM or txt, netbook or computer with chat panes all over the show, answering live messages and party chat all going while getting in my gaming and doing this with brain engines firing on half the cylinders made me dull party chat company.

No apologies for last night, I gave up on IM and txt and everything, I even closed my netbook!!! madness!!! Spec Ops the Line was drawing me in slowly... I finally got a dose of what I've been missing... That sense of complete immersion in the game story where your own real life problems don't matter until you power down the Xbox.... being engulfed by all the emotions the game gives you... feeling the soul of a game. If you play though this and skip a single cut scene your missing out.

I played it in one sitting on the easiest setting, and my save file says 3hrs and 42mins and I had 80% of the collectibles without a guide. One thing they did right was chapter select and collectible log (which btw are all amazing story tidbits, well worth the extra sit though) not once did I look at the guide or achievement list and I'm glad I didn't on my first playthough

I won't go in to much detail about Spec Ops: The Line other than the graphics are good but not great, the shooting is good enough, and the music is awesome but the story... and the more specifically the choices your faced with, which often don't even feel like choices... are stand out mind blowing brilliant.

Which brings me to life's choices... the little things that change everything... Our lives are entirely defined by the choices.... but sometimes the choices aren't entirely yours to make... I thought about this last night playing the game... knowing I had choices to make to progress but what about my team mates... when I made a choice that affected their lives too, when I told them this is where we're going and how we're doing things... sure they had the choice to stay or to go but is that really a choice?

In a more real life example, a drunk driver smashes in to the side of your car... it was ultimately your choice to drive on the same road at the same time... but you didn't choose to drink... you didn't choose to be hit... in the end was any of it your choice?

In life there are these crossroads that are big and clear and you make the defining choices that align with your morality and what you know to be true. But what about all the decisions made for you, by others, perhaps not even aware the impact it has on your life... maybe they care... maybe they don't... maybe they aren't aware... maybe it doesn't even matter to them...

Not really sure what the moral of the post is, just trying to square away some echoes in my brain
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I hate ending a weeks blog in a bad mood, knowing its up for the weekend.... so here goes my highlight of the day

I figured retail therapy all ways cheers me up, nothing is better than tangible exchange of money for goods.... even the electronic version is pretty satisfying, but I figure some insta-gratification last night would do me some good.

I wasn't entirely disappointed but not seeing the new Kinect Ice Age nor Brave was a bit annoying get your shit together EB! this score junkie has an obsession to feed!!

Instead I picked up these trinkets, candy boxes

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I am a HUGE Mario fan, and these made me a little giddy.

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Inside was compressed dextrose candy not really impressive but SO CUTE!

look at the detail!!!

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the coins are a little banana-ish and the stars are a little lemon... someone stop me eating them all! I think I'm going to use these as pill boxes too!!
Posted by phatal1ty on 20 July 12 at 01:21 | There are 4 comments on this blog post - Please log in to comment on this blog.
Jul
19
PermalinkIts the little things - Part III
I now have first hand, scientific proof that Anti-Anxiety meds does dull the reflexes... Terrorist Hunt for http://www.trueachievements.com/RB6V2--DE-xbox-360.htm was painful... last night StophJ , BL4CK SiLv4 and I only had one map to clear and I was woefully terrible.... I wanted to shoot myself for being that bad.... on a good round I'd get about 6 kills which is subpar for ANY map thankfully my team mates are awesome and we even got some help from Discerper !! my random boost requester that pulled me back to putting some real effort in cleaning up RB6V2 (DE).... I was rather pleased with my efforts to round up friends over the weekend to play with his crew considering the game is fairly rare.

The medication I'm on is temporary and while I'm suffering less anxiety... it hasn't done much to improve my overall sense of wellness.... not to mention it makes me feel like my whole world is slow... like I'm stuck in a jar of runny honey. I also think its making me a little introverted... which I'm sure is the exact opposite of what is supposed to happen but meeting new people especially in real life is something I'm dreading more and more.
I was passed along an invite to my high school reunion yesterday via Email and I couldn't think of anything I would rather do less... even entertaining the thought long enough to talk to one of my highschool classmates was making me irritable.
I'm more contemplative but the thoughts are a little hazy less crisp around the edges and I have to focus much harder on the task at hand... not my usual multi-tasky-self

I'm looking forwards to trying something else in a week or not taking anything... would be more ideal... but I don't think I want to have that same sense of desperate-black-hole-panic-depression... anyway I have a much better grasp on describing what I need or rather what I think I need... now that I've tried it... and isn't that what life is all about? New experiences good and bad...

I was rather apprehensive about talking about taking meds... it seems a little defeatist and something that is really too personal to share but it seems its common (well more than I expected) and perhaps someone feeling the same way I do might be able to take something away from my experiences or people who have gone though it might be able to give me some insight.

I'm also having an uncontrollable unseasonable craving for French Vanilla Ice Creme... which I put down to the meds too... as my brain asks WTF is going on while I stuff my face in front of space heater wearing 4 layers of clothes. THANK FUCK my supermarket has self-checkouts as picking up two tubs of ice-creme with nothing else in the dead of winter at 7pm on a Wednesday would have come with some odd looks from checkout staff I'm sure.

Waking up this morning having made Kinect gaming arrangements the night before made getting out of bed less of a choice and was surprisingly easier because of it... Its easier to know someone is depending on my participation rather than having to muster up the will do it alone.
After all that's what friendship is.... not having to do it alone...

I also discovered Battle vs. Chess is region free... despite being rather hard to come by and only having a German release. (btw its all in English in case your wondering)
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As promised to a few people (but mostly to ind1gnationX ) I have a updated picture of my bookshelves.

This first shelf top row is all Kinect (and the stack at the top those are just some of the completed ones) its missing a big handful as some are out on loan... and the next two and a half shelves contain competed games and random boxes (the few CE or LE games I do own)

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the second bookshelf is every other game with any achievements left including DLC

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and last is a close up of the stack of shame - games on loan :S

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Posted by phatal1ty on 19 July 12 at 01:00 | There are 7 comments on this blog post - Please log in to comment on this blog.