So much to say both gaming wise and personally.
Lets get the personally out of the way. I know it is a very general thing to say that one doesn't deal with death very easily. I just have such a hard time with it even if it isn't someone I was just acquainted with. Last year was my most trying year on an emotional level with deaths. I just have never had to deal with deaths to those close to me up until last year. For that I feel blessed. A curse of that is having to deal with all that emotion at the point of my life I am at. I lost my last grandparent last year, it was last July 4th actually, which is my dad's birthday too. The winter prior to that I studied abroad in Korea and went to school and got to spend some time with granny. I have never been more pleased with a decision my whole entire life. Had I not, I would have regretted it until the day I die.
Fast forward to last fall and around the time of my best friend's birthday, we had a friend pass away at the young age of 19. This hit me like a ton of bricks. I have never cried so much in my entire life. To see someone who was vibrant and living life to fullest and just like that she was gone. Her family are wonderful people and it just broke my heart to see them lose their daughter to an accident like that.
About 2 months later, a fellow co-worker, who I admit I didn't know that well passed away in a car accident. She and I had one of those office like relationships just saying hi how are you and some small talk. Another life cut tragically short. Having already dealt with what I had the months prior I just lost it emotionally. I tried to cut off most emotion for fear of anxiety taking over. It really was one of the most trying years I have endured in my 30 years of being alive. I am stronger for it and came out okay but emotionally drained.
Fast forward to last week now. One of my friends from high school had his brother pass away. I was speechless. The manner at which this happened just hit me like a ton of bricks. Lots of questions asked. Lots of wondering and lots of emotion. I realized at this time that I really am at a loss for words and it made me ponder this:
"What can you say to someone on what is quite possibly the worst day of their life?". My friend's mom answered my question when I gave her a big hug and was speechless, she quite simply said, "There are no words" as she fought back the tears. She then gave me another hug and lectured me saying, you call your sister. You tell her you love her and that you will never stop loving her. By this time I was full on open the floodgates crying. I will admit I am quite soft when it comes to crying. No shame in it as my friends say. It just means you have a good heart.
Now you might ask what is the point of all this? I just kind of felt I had to pour it out onto someone or something. Writing it makes me feel like I have learned something from all this death and that I am a stronger person for having dealt with it best as I could without suffering some sort of breakdown. The lessons you learn from others in death are powerful. I just wish we as human beings would learn while they are living too. I am amazed at what my 19 year old friend taught me in light of her death. Since then I have taken those words to heart, but I just realized I haven't fully embraced these words:
"Live life to the fullest".
This blog will be a symbol of a promise to do that every single day to the best of my ability as best as I can. Whether it be a hobby I enjoy, or working my tail off, or just spending time with friends, to a simple text message to my sister saying I love you sis. That is what life is all about. Live it love it and embrace it.
I know I just wrote a novel... So I will cut the next part short.
I finished Skylanders over the course of the week. I was partially motivated by phatal1ty's completion of it so thanks to Lei for that.
. I really enjoyed the game. Those of you who have not played it, I fully recommend getting Terra-fin. Makes a world of difference for a few achievements. It looks easy and all but man they ratchet up the difficulty a notch later on in the game. I managed but wasn't expecting to get tested like that lol.
I decided to move onto a new project of sorts. Finish 1 as I like to call it. I currently have multiple games on my card lacking one achievement and it really is starting to bug me. So back into mini completionist mode for me. Then onto Portal 2 most likely. Though with Spec Ops The Line coming out tomorrow... that might all get pushed aside.
Going to be boosting Inversion hardcore with a local buddy. He is finally getting around to doing the dual box thing while I quad box since you can't do Team Deathmatch or Team Objective without 6 people. So rather than share kills, we are going to be boosting that and finishing it.
As I said, a short little blog telling you guys what is up with life. I really am trying to immerse myself in games to not think so much so if I seem flaky or not talkative please by all means call me out on it or even better invite me into party chat so I don't turn totally anti-social.
Till next time keep it poppin'!