In a few respects, gaming was a LOT better when I was 13.
When I was 13, I had a Sega Genesis with only five games for it. Getting a new game was always a major event, especially when it involved saving up my allowance money for half a year. I had very few games, but I showered them with love and I mastered the hell out of them.
Now I am 38. I own several hundred games, most of which I will never show much love or master. I sometimes spend more time deciding what I feel like playing than actually playing. I sometimes feel like I need to keep adding to my collection just because I somehow think that is what my inner 13 year old wants, or because I want to impress my house guests by inviting them over and letting them play whatever they want to play. Buying a new game is not a major event anymore. The wonder of starting a new game is mostly dead and gone for me. I have become oversaturated with way too much of a good thing. It has reached the level of digital hoarding at this point.
While it sucks that I had obtained a painful wrist fracture, it actually has been good for me to take a break from the consoles.
I have been foolishly trying to impress others with the size of my collection. Which is bullshit, because I have a lot better things going for me than that. I have a job that I love. I volunteer. I have sobriety. I have my own apartment. My bills are paid. My kitchen is well stocked. My 401k is decent. And I have a good circle of friends. What else do I need to prove? I am doing better than so many other people out there, and I work hard to keep things this way.
In any case, I have realized that hoarding video games can be every bit as obsessive and compulsive as drug addiction can be. Nope, that statement is not hyperbolic, I know because I have experienced both.
I wonder if I can ever recapture the joy of gaming that I had when purchases were few and far between and I only made sure to get what was the best of the best at the time.
This is a silly blog post, typed somewhat uncomfortably thanks to one of my wrists being wrapped up. Thanks for reading.
Posted by CompleteKurisu
on 10 August 17 at 01:53
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