Relationship Dilemma (help wanted)
Wow I am bad with relationships.
Can anybody help me out with this?
It all started the night after Halloween. There's this girl in my homeroom class name Serena. Since I met her two months ago I had just thought of us as friends. I don't know what made me think of it, but it just came to me all of a sudden that she might like me, and after that, I came up with all these reasons why she might like me, like how she would always approach me during homeroom and how she would always wave and say hi to me in the hallways and how she sought me out and gave me her number at a Halloween party.
Now, I had a crush in 8th grade, but instead of a girl liking me, I liked a girl; her name was Yumi. We were in the school play together and I thought she liked me because she would always touch my legs and give me hugs, but when I asked her, she said she didn't think of it like that, and that those were just friendly gestures, so I TOTALLY
read that wrong.
Anyway, back to Serena. Now, I'm a millennial, so I don't know if this has always been a thing with guys, or if it is just a thing with high school guys or just a thing with this generation or whatever etc. etc. However, a lot of guys at my high school and a lot of my guy friends have this thing where if a girl likes them it is an instant turn on and the guy pretty much will always like the girl back. But when I asked my girl friends about this they said that that was just weird and they didn't have anything like that happen to them. I didn't even know if Serena actually
liked me or not and I was still getting super obsessed with her and as the week passed I couldn't stop thinking about her and then before I knew it, I realized that I had a crush on her. In our high school, we have homeroom on Monday and Tuesday and I realized that she might like me Tuesday night, so I had to wait a whole week before I saw her again. Throughout the week I texted her three times, but she didn't respond to any of them cuz of a software glitch in her phone--or so she claims. Alright, here are the texts:
11/1: "So what'd you do for Halloween" (the Halloween party where she gave me her number was the night before Halloween). This was a couple minutes after I realized she might like me and was sort of a test text to see what she'd say back.
11/1 (about two hours after the first text): "You watching the World Series?" This was again, a test text just in case she missed my first one or forgot to respond to it.
11/2: "Do you have any classes after school?" Again, a third test text to see what she would respond with. Maybe she was bust Tuesday night and couldn't respond.
Now, there's this junior in my choir class who is also in my homeroom class, and the Thursday after choir I told her I think Serena might like me and she says she asks me if I like her back and I said I don't know even though I was sure that I did like her back. She then goes on to say that she is pretty sure Serena is a LESBIAN?!?!
. Why didn't you tell me that first? Geez... I didn't believe this but there was no way I was going to ask Serena over text because a) I had already texted her three times and she hadn't responded--I wanted to know what was going on before I texted her again and b) No. Just no.
And before you know it it's Monday...
And of course we don't have homeroom on Tuesday this week because Veterans day caused homeroom to switch from Tuesday to Thursday. So today, during homeroom I find out why she is not receiving my texts and there is the occasional stare going on between us. Then at lunch, the interesting thing happened. Here's where it gets a bit complicated.
At lunch, I saw Serena's best friend, Angul, sitting one table over from me, talking with an openly gay girl, and I thought maybe she is lesbian, and I also wanted to ask her about Serena's homosexuality, but didn't want to make it seem out of place. I wanted to go talk to her, but I didn't have the nerve, so I just went to buy some food, and coincidentally, I grab my drink and turn around and bump right into her and it's pretty awkward for a second but it's okay because two seconds later it gets 10x more awkward when I ask her if she is dating the openly gay girl she was sitting with (What were you thinking, man?). She's like "hell no, I am the straightest person a person can be", but she was cool with it because she said people've asked her about it before and people had also questioned my homosexuality to my face so I that it's not really a big deal (especially in high school when 1 out of 3 people are bicurious). Anyway, I was already in for it so might as well ask her about Serena. I asked if Serena was dating anyone, and when she asked why I told her that I think she might like me. She told me Serena was bi and that she was dating a girl named Julia (one of my friends since elementary school) but they had recently broken up, then promptly asked me if I liked her, which I answered yes. Then she told me that she could hook me up and we were going to be "a happy couple" in no time, which I have no idea if that is a good or bad thing or if she is just teasing. Remember, she is Serena's best friend.
So, I was going to ask Serena to the movies this Sunday, but now that Angul knows how I like her, I just won't say anything because I don't want to come off as desperate. I just really hope Serena has that thing where if she knows I like her she'll like me back, or that I was right in the first place and she originally liked me.
Relationships are hard!
Until next time,
Update blog on this next week, and maybe a blog about why I hate my English teach, or why I hate my job.
Posted by KinectKid333
on 11 November 16 at 04:17
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