Hello & welcome to blog 121: For the Love of…. Taking a Break Music while writing:
It’s been nearly 2 years since my last blog and in that time I’m sure things may have changed with the way blog’s are perceived on here, there may well have been some format changes I am not up to date with and frankly my blogging skills are no doubt somewhat rusty.
All that aside, I felt the inspiration calling me and I have a few things I can write about so I thought I would have a go again and see what comes out of the fingertips.
Here’s my own self-imposed rules, you know I love rules right
I’m allowing myself a max of an hour to write this, if the hours up and I’m mid flow, well tough, the blog stops, in all honesty I think I’ll be done in less than 30 mins, but this is a trick from journaling and so I thought I’d give it a go
Giveaways, just say NO.
The only thing I am giving away is my time, thoughts and advice, no freebie games, no promo codes, no swift hand jobs behind the bike shed, so if you came here for that you are out of luck, go follow someone else who does that
New start, new series
So while I blog for this spell, may as well change the name of the series from the old “Sunday Ramble” which worked well at the time to this new series “For the Love of”
Basically, I’m going to cut all the extras and just focus on 1 topic, it keeps it simple, may end up being quicker to write up and frankly I’m not sure who read all that extra blurb in my old blogs anyway.
Sure it was a nice way to thank my new followers, but it was a bit of a gimmick to fish for new followers, and it worked, but that was when that seemed important.
Release Day and Topics
It will still be published on a Sunday, no set time though, just on a Sunday at some point and as for topics, whatever really, I’m not going to limit myself to just rambling about gaming
FOR THE LOVE OF: TAKING A BREAK
Well I’ve been gaming again for a few weeks now after another of my well known gaming breaks, any long term reader will know, it’s just what I do and it works for me.
Generally I take a break as I’ve lost the love for gaming or I just feel the need to shift up my routine and do something else for a bit, but this most recent break was somewhat different and I know only a few people know the real reason behind it, so here’s an explanation, not that’s I felt I needed to, just for those that wondered.
The C Word,
No not cunt, cancer.
In December, just before Christmas my mum was meant to be having an operation, as part of the pre-op testing they actually discovered she had cervical cancer, thankfully it was at the early stages.
I’m sure anyone who has been through this with other family members can appreciate it’s quite a shock, but she was fast tracked and the planned operation was cancelled and replaced with a removal op instead that happened in early Jan.
Most of my free time in the early part of the year was caring for her, good news is she got through the op ok and the most recent test showed she is clear, but naturally it was quite a stressful time.
The W Word
No not wanker, work.
As is usual for me I take the week off before Christmas and last year was no exception, I left work knowing my mum had cancer and I had told my colleagues and boss so they were all aware of the ongoing situation.
The plan was to have a good Christmas, then get back and start the New Year in my new role, so I was already quite anxious about the return as it would be something new I have no experience in.
Got back to work in the New Year with the operation due the following week to find out that the most vital team member had been let go on the 24th December, this essentially meant I had 2 jobs to do as I had the elements of my new role and all his old stuff as no-one else in the business new how to do it.
No hand over, nothing, just gone, but it’s ok as Ash is amazing and can do it all…. That was basically their attitude, now use of the first C word to describe them would be appropriate. The timing couldn’t have been any worse, but hey that’s how life can be sometimes.
The B Word
No not bollocks, break.
I had 4 months of working stupid hours at work with loads of stress there and then all the stress that came with caring for my mum.
I turned back to my old faithful daily practice of Meditation, Tai Chi, chi Kung, Yoga and mixed in some affirmation work and self reiki, basically I spent any free time I had working on my own resource levels so I could get through this challenging period
I’d get up at 4.24am, do a load of this good stuff to set me up for the day, then get through the stresses of the day without being too phased by it, then would go to bed at about 20:30, and get up the same time the next day and do it all over again.
Sounds crazy, but it worked, check out Hal Elrod’s “The Miracle Morning”, the books ok but you can basically find it contents online / YouTube. It’s essentially doing stuff I did anyway, but sticking it all together.
It has the ability to change your life, so if you are feeling stuck or going through a stressful time, look it up and give it a try as you may surprise yourself and it could open up whole new avenues for you.
This routine went on from Jan to May, so it was a pretty tough period and basically meant something had to go and the easiest thing was gaming time.
Sometimes it’s good to break an addiction with cold turkey, frankly gaming for me, and I expect for a great deal of the people on TA is an addition, we just don’t think of it like that and at the same time enable and encourage each other, but there are worse things I’ve been addicted to, so it’s all relative really.
So that’s why I took the last break, a much needed step away from it to focus on some things that are actually really important, like family and earning a living.
Now I am aware of the recent sad event’s that some people know about and have blogged on, I did not know the person involved, but having had depression for over 30 years, I know that very well
Life is an interesting journey, sometimes things will come our way that are meant to really test us and it can often feel like it’s all too much, sometimes we will be pushed beyond what we thought we could handle, but somehow, if we stick with it, we get through and it’s only when we look back we realise how difficult a time it was and sometimes then wonder how we did it.
I think that’s because we spend too much time listening the voice our mind creates and believe that is us, that constant chatter of crap which can quite often be full of doubt and self-criticism, it just does it so the ego retains control it’s so scared of losing it’s grip, it really is no wonder the world is such a mess.
Anyway, just realise that you have in you an abundance of ability that is untapped just waiting to come forth when you need it most.
Now if you want a simple trick to being happy then start a gratitude log.
Write 3 things a day you are grateful for, it can be anything from a bit of shit rag so you can wipe your arse and soap to wash your hands to a smile from a stranger or getting paid, it doesn’t matter, just 3 things a day for 21 days and notice how you feel at the end.
Thank it’s the hours up….. (1445 words)
Enjoy your life until the next time