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PermalinkThe days grow longer...
Not even sure if I will post this. I just need a place to talk...
Another day, more problems. Whether it is a coworker telling me that I am small and lame, or a customer getting upset, there are always problems. Today I saw a friend from school at work. Little did I know he didnt seem to be a friend anymore. I walked up to greet him, and instead of the friendship i remembered I was greeted behind a fake smile and an "I have to go" excuse. Going to the gym was a way to be by myself for an hour every few days, trying to get into shape, knowing I am at least bettering my physical body. Sadly, this happiness only stays for so long. I slowly fall back into the same hole that seems to be getting deeper every day. Some days are good, don't get me wrong, but unfortunately I find myself wondering where i will be, or who I am, and these thoughts make me sad. I don't feel like Ill ever be able to succeed in my programming vision. I dont feel like ill ever get bigger like I have tried to do so many times. In my whole life, video games have always been a way for me to forget about life, forget about the outside world and be me. Ive always enjoyed it, and now I find myself sitting with the screen paused, thinking again about all the issues that I have. I think about how many friends I have, and I see that I do not have many. Sure, I talk to people on here, but none reach out to play with me. I have to work for it. I never get that long sought party invite. Or that hey lets play battlefield message. So I look at my real world friends. It is lonely. Ive had three best friends in my life. The first was awesome. Sadly, we grew apart, as he became closer to my other best friend and talked less and less to me. The second best friend and I had a long friendship. Never fought. Never had problems. We had a fall out after he started seeing my ex very soon after our break up. That was a stab in that heart, and although we are reuniting and hanging out, it just isnt the same. And the third, and honestly most important to me. He has always been there. I can remember three years ago getting on xbox and always having that friend to talk to. Whether it was discussing real world problems, gaming problems, it didnt matter. It was just awesome to always have that friend. Sadly, I messed up today, and it seems like it has been an ongoing thing. I dont want to lose this relationship too. Its lonely down here. I have not cried in a while, but tonight I shed tears. I just hope tomorrow is brighter.
Posted by SprinkyDink on 17 July 17 at 03:26
LORDOFDOOKIE69 I can definitely relate on the friends topic. I've had bad anxiety and depression problems for as long as I can remember. Not sure I ever had a best friend and the last 10 years I've grown more and more accustomed to being alone outside of video games. It's tough most days and I often have those same thoughts about my future. Will I succeed in my field of study when I get my degrees? Will it be too late to recover mentally from the often times self imposed seclusion? I used to think when I was younger that it was just me and that all the bad shit was a consequence from some unknown crime I had committed but once I started getting into psychology and became more aware of people and how they work I realized that wasn't true. I guess that discovery is what keeps me going in life. For all its faults and hardships I know I'm not the only person struggling. These rough spots in life seem to last forever like the moment you stub your pinky toe on a sharp corner but they pass. Friends and relationships will come and go throughout life. While the loss of a friendship is hard just think of it as an opportunity to meet new people to fill that void. Hold your chin up and keep on Joshin while the bad times pass and the good times follow!
Posted by LORDOFDOOKIE69 on 17 Jul 17 at 04:41
v CARRNAGE https://www.7cups.com/
Always found this site useful when I was going through the rough times myself.
Posted by v CARRNAGE on 17 Jul 17 at 12:16
Stealth David Have you considered Zoloft or Prozac?
Posted by Stealth David on 17 Jul 17 at 15:44
SprinkyDink Nah I usually just work it out. These spurts hit hard but don't last too long. I thank everyone for commenting. All that makes sense dookie. Just trying to get back into things.
Posted by SprinkyDink on 17 Jul 17 at 15:56
Stealth David You sure mate you been posting stuff that makes me concerned about you I just hope you are ok and you feeling better soon :(

Just ask if you need anything
Posted by Stealth David on 17 Jul 17 at 18:45
SprinkyDink Yeah just had a rough night last night. I'm good most of the time but sometimes shit all hits at once. Like I'm having fun today:)
Posted by SprinkyDink on 17 Jul 17 at 19:03
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Posted by v CARRNAGE on 17 Jul 17 at 19:24
Stealth David Glad to hear
Posted by Stealth David on 17 Jul 17 at 20:15