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I tend to keep things in. Always have. I just don't like the thought of burdening people with my personal stuff. For whatever reason though, when I write these blogs once per year or so, I just let it all out. For the most part that is.

Obviously, the streak is still going. I also started a streak on PSN, because I'm a crazy person. That streak is currently at 231 days. Some days I actually get my trophy before my achievement. Obviously, if one has to go, it's the PSN one. I didn't intend on starting another streak, it just sorta happened.

I'm still single, for better or worse. It's not that I don't have the chance to be in a relationship, I don't think I want to. I've had several dates and new partners over the last year. However, none of them really clicked to the point where I would want to date. Dating hasn't gotten any easier though. I hoped the more I did it, the easier it would get. I'm still an anxious mess with no self esteem. I really appreciate my alone time though, so not getting a date isn't the end of the world.

I've started drinking again. My gambling has gotten a bit worse. Nothing serious. I have limits set so I don't dive into these vices too deep and cause some sort of permanent damage or anything like that. I think I stopped drinking and slowed down my gambling before because I was much happier. It's not like I'm generally unhappy now, just not as happy. I think the higher dosage on the anti-depressants helps with all that too.

I miss a lot of things about my old life. Having someone to come home to. Someone to lean on if things got tough. This week was terrible, so I've thought about this a bit this week. There are things about my current life that I enjoy too. While it isn't an even split, I think I'm doing ok.

I'm trying not to be such a recluse. I refuse to go work at home. I'm trying to see friends more. I visit my parents most Sundays. This is against my nature, but it's what's best for me. If I went work at home, I guarantee I would get my groceries delivered, and I would never leave my apartment again.

Work is fine. I am trying to get a new position. I just feel like it's time for something else. But I am still doing well at my current position, so the bosses seem happy, and bonuses are always nice.

In other happenings, I have several concerts coming up. I'm going with my brother and my dad to most of them. Me and my friends are going to All Out next weekend, which should be great. The next day me and my brother are going to a Brewers v Cubs game at Wrigley. I am also very excited for the upcoming NFL season. The Raiders look to be better this year. Them being on Hard Knocks gets me all the more excited to see this team on the field. However, I am prepared to be disappointed.

Games are starting to come out again. The list of games I will be getting seems to be lighter than previous years, but I am nonetheless excited. DOOM Eternal figures to be my game of the year. I don't see that changing. Everything I hear about it is positive, and DOOM 2016 was one of my favorite games in recent memory.

In conclusion, I again want to thank you for reading this. This is literally just the ramblings of a fella who doesn't know what to do. I just sit at the keyboard and blam, there's a blog. As always, I don't expect anyone to read this, and don't understand why anyone would. I just put this out there to get it out. However, if you do read this, feel free to comment or whatever. My socials are the same as my gamertag. And if you ever need help with an achievement that I already have, don't hesitate to ask.

As always, see you next year!
Posted by liljon2137 on 24 August 19 at 04:52
Badw0lf 01 Hi just read all your blogs, it is good that you are writing these get your feelings out, my blogs are just stupid but probably because I've not got the guts to lay it out there for everyone to see, I did put a small part in my bio, so I take my hat off to you. clap

I can relate with the streak and gaming, for me its completions & I play some crap just to get one. laugh
That's because I swapped on addiction for another, this one is healthier.

I have followed your blog and feel free to send a friends request, no worries if you don't, similar taste in music, I'm more an AC/DC man, bon scott days of course smile .

Take care buddy.
Posted by Badw0lf 01 on 24 Aug at 09:45
liljon2137 Thank you sir. Sorry it took a bit to reply, if that's how this works? I have no idea why I lay it out in the blogs I put on here. My twitter is mostly jokes, and I don't really talk about this stuff a whole lot. Something about me writing these yearly ish blogs just has me laying it all out there.

Completions is a whole level above what I'm doing. Hell, the people around me streak wise get a lot more achievements than I do. A lot of days I get my achievement and I'm done. I think I do this to prevent any sort of burnout that may be possible. I agree this is much healthier than other addictions. Unfortunately I fell back into my other vices and am kinda buzzed as I write this.

I sent a friend request on here, will probably send one on Xbox Live. There's some good post Bon Scott stuff, just not as much. Personally, I've been kinda spoiled this year with music with new Slipknot, Rammstein, and Tool albums coming out, along with all the shows I've been going to and will be going to.

I appreciate your comment, and hope all is well with you!
Posted by liljon2137 on 26 Aug at 06:54