So this is my first blog. I don't like to blog at all but this is something I need to get off my chest.
*In this blog I mention a certain friend. Most of my close friends know who I'm taking about so please refrain from mentioning any names.
I've hit 550,000 which in itself is a huge accomplishment. In that time I had my ups and downs, spent a lot of money and time, and made some awesome friends along the way. A lot of memories I will cherish for a long time. Like staying up all night to get into a overwatch lobby to get one achievement. Fun times. But celebrating at 550K seems kind of a wierd number to celebrate at. So what's special about this? Well, it is at this point that I pass a certain friend in GS. Someone who've I respected for a long time. Someone who accelerated my achievement hunting prowess to super saiyan levels. Someone who would race me in who can complete a certain game before the other person. Great right? I should feel great, I do, but I also don't.
I started my TA around 2014. I met my friend in mid 2016 and played together constantly for a few years. He was at least 100K higher than I was at the time. I told him one day I want to pass you in GS but if you keep playing like that I will never get close. We would play games for achievements, talk about our families, our life. Even though we were different, we vibed with each other. This went on for a few years. Then my friend had to take a break from gaming for his family, which I completely understood. Gets back on a couple months later and wants to slow down gaming a bit. I respected that. Then a few months after that he drops off the face of the earth removing everything and everyone. He messaged me his reason why he did what he did. In my mind I couldn't accept that, I messaged him, sent friend requests, desperately wanting him to come back. It was stressing me out a bit. It was at that point I realized this wasn't healthy either. I was fishing for his friendship to come back. His reasons on him leaving were his own and there was nothing I could do. Everyone moves on in life, everyone grows up. Yet I wondered what was going on with him. Mind you this was all pre-covid.
Some time had passed and my friend comes back online, explaining his reasoning. It's at this point that covid was becoming a thing. He starts gaming less and less and the times we did play together he would mention something about politics or current events. I am not into politics at all. I do have an opinion or two but when it comes to gaming I don't like to get political if I can help it. I just want to hunt for achievements, it's my escape. But his posts and blogs were concerning and frequent, at least in my opinion. It had gotten to the point I was getting............scared of him. My other friends had issues with him and I feel like I was playing with a whole different person. He was not the friend I once knew. After a couple conversations I decided to distance myself from my friend. It was a hard decision and I don't know if he fully understood my reasoning. Even the time has passed I still go on his TA page and see what he is up to, or what he's playing. It looks like my friend has become inactive to the point he has stopped playing games altogether. Yet I still had that dream to surpass my friend so I kept going. Then today I did it. I feel so proud, yet saddened. I look around to find him and he's nowhere to be found. Don't get me wrong I'm happy where I am at right now and I want to continue this for as long as I am able to. But when someone to be a big part in my gaming/ TA life is not the person I once knew and is probably done. It hurts. I just want my old friend back, but I don't think it's possible anymore. To be honest, If he is much happier without gaming in his life, I don't want him back online.
This isn't a cry for help and I am not depressed. I just feel like something I needed to say not just to my circle of friends but to a bunch of random people on the internet that think I am now weird. Go figure :P
To my friend, if you ever come across this blog, I hope you and your family are happy and healthy. I hope your son is doing well in school and will become as successful as you are. I hope your wife will give you many, many years of love and affection. And to you, my friend, I wish for you live a long, productive, healthy life. You helped me become the achievement hunting nutjob I am today and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I wouldn't be in this position that I'm in without you. I don't care what anyone says, Thank you my friend!
Here's to another 550,000 GS